Apologies and Introductions...

I've been rather poorly lately, and to say my 'get up and go' got up and gone.. would be an understatement. As I explained in a previous blog, I'm a sufferer of Endomitriosis, and at this present moment in time I'm suffering pretty badly - and it looks like these new painkillers are being just as sh*t as the others.. so back onto Morphine I go. I apologise in advance for any bat sh*t crazy posts that may appear!
It's pretty horrendous at the moment, and I feel like I can't really do much.. even putting make up on is becoming a chore - which is never ever the case; so I thought I would show you what has been cheering me up lately, and introduce you to my babies.

Meet Frodo and Samwise, my 9 week old Guinea Piggies.

 The story starts forever ago, when me and the other half decided that we wanted pet Guinea Pigs to start our little family off... and after endless searching we found the perfect little pair just 40 minutes away - so off we toddled to pick them up 2 weeks ago.. and it's been everything we expected and more. 
These little guys, are genuinely, the perfect pets. They love being cuddled and petted, and make the cutest little squeaking and 'purring' noises whenever we cuddle up with them.. and they know exactly when it's food time, and run straight to there little bowl wheeking and squeaking until we open up the hutch and feed them there super fresh veggies... 
We even bring them inside for playtime, and they adore just running around and nibbling on little fresh treats. 
These little guys, are honestly keeping me going at the moment.. even when I want to curl up into a tight little ball and stay there, I know I cant.. because I have to go and give my babies the attention they crave and deserve! 
These two are going to be regular guests on my blog, so I thought I'd better introduce them to you now - before you think I'm going insane, when I say I'm cuddling up to 'Frodo and Samwise'. Obviously, we're just massive Lord of the Rings fans... 

Again, I'd like to apologise for not blogging for a few days, I'm back at it now - and I may have to do a beauty blog or something like it tomorrow.. But I hope this fills the void.

Anyway guys... do any of you have guinea pigs, or pets that keep you going in those really difficult times?!

Ciao for Now! xXx

"Spring Fling" Lips

So, today I thought I'd write my first Beauty Blog. I mean, this is one of the main reasons I've started this blog. Let's start off with where I got this little idea from shall I?

So I've decided to do a little 'Spring Fling/Summer Fling' series... Where I am going to talk about my favourite beauty bits and bobs at this present moment in time. This is #1 and its all about my 'go-to-lips' These are literally the lip products that I haven't been able to stop using lately. They're the perfect colours for right now, and the texture. Oh wow. 

Here goes guys... Lets start with naming them - Tanya Burr - Chic. Rimmel Apocolips - Luna. Maybelline Baby Lips - Cherry Me. Rimmel 1000 Kisses - Nothing but Nude. Rimmel 1000 Kisses - Carry on Cherry. 

Lets start with Tanya Burr - Chic... I cannot contain my love for this lipgloss range, I currently only own 3 colours, but that is going to increase within the next few weeks.. Everything about this collection is perfection. I picked up 'Chic' around 3 weeks ago, and I haven't been able to stop wearing it. The colour is beautiful, its a perfect nude shade for my skin tone, and is so pigmented that I don't need to add any colours underneath! Also, the smell and texture is to die for, it's an all round perfect product. 

I picked up Apocolips - Luna in Tesco, because I was dying to try a bit of a brighter colour.. and this has impressed me no end. It's a perfect peachy colour, with a slight orange tone. When it starts to fade off, it leaves a matte peach colour behind.. which is pretty and means I don't feel the need to reapply constantly. Definitely the perfect shade for when I want a bit more of a 'colour-pop' in my makeup look. 

Baby Lips - Cherry Me does exactly what it says on the tin. Leaves my lips 'baby soft' whilst adding a hint of colour. It's my ideal product for days when I don't want to keep applying and checking my lip colour, but want a slight hint of colour. And its perfect for those makeup free days, where we want to just brighten up our smile!

I can review both the Rimmel 1000 Kisses Nothing but Nude & Carry on Cherry pretty simply. If you want a colour that lasts - these are for you. I've had so many different lip stains in the past, but these ones really work.. they're that impressive that I had to buy the other half's mum one! I absolutely love the Carry on Cherry. I am dark lip girl, I love the 'light on the eye - dark on the lips' makeup look, for most occasions... and this shade is perfect for day time and night time! The balm is beautifully moisturising, and I've been using both of these colours pretty constantly since I purchased them. 

So there we have it, my top 5 'Spring Fling Favourite' Lip colours...

Let me know if anybody is loving these as well.. I'll be on soon with another 'Spring Fling..'

Lots of Love, 

Ciao for Now! xXx

So I was thinking...

I want to be as truthful, and as honest as possible with my new blogging lifestyle. I know there are parts which I want and need to keep private, but maybe - my blogs can help other people realise they're not alone? Who knows? But this Blog is going to be a little bit of an insight into my life, and how I'm coping with my illness. 

I guess I should go straight to the elephant in the room, and explain what my 'illness' is. I am a sufferer of Endometriosis. And I have been for a while now, apparently since I was around 14.. but I was only diagnosed 2 years ago. (yay for misdiagnosis...) I have read many, many blogs and forums on how other women have coped with this, and I feel like I'm just like everybody else.

My initial reaction to being diagnosed was : 'oh s*it, I can't have children' but after a lovely chat with my doctors, I've been given hope, and I have an extremely high chance of still being fertile, because of the location of my Endo. So my first bit of advice would be, not to panic. It's a crappy enough illness without stressing out about things which may not even be relevant to you.

I hate to say it, but my Endo is controlling my life again at the moment. After being treated for 3 months (a lovely brief run in with the menopause...) the doctors are now planning surgery and have taken me off the treatment. It's as if I was given a glimpse of what life could be like, and then they've snatched it back away, and here I am, back at square one. Back in ridiculous amounts of pain, back to being doped up on stupid painkillers, and back to not being able to work. 

I don't know how other women' bodies react to the pain, but mine tends to just shut down. So if I'm having a really bad day, I tend to just collapse, and throw up. It's really joyous... I swear..

People tell me to cheer up, and to try and stay positive about it all... I hear how it'll all be sorted soon enough, and how it could be a hell of a lot worst... But it seems really hard to stay positive. I mean, I know there are people out there who have problems, which make mine seem minuscule and ridiculous, but right now - I can't really cope with it. 

I guess it doesn't really help, with the fact we've just moved to a new area - so I don't know my doctors and they don't know me... 

I'm not going to lie, my support network is pretty incredible... I'm so lucky to have somebody in my life, who will help me with stupid tasks like putting on some socks, when the pain is too bad to even bend down. I'm ridiculously lucky, to have found somebody who can put up with my moaning, and grumbling about being constantly in pain... And somebody who will go and get me a hot water bottle and pain killers - just when he notices that look on my face. So here's my little Thank you to my other half - Adam, I actually couldn't do this without you. Thank you for everything.

Will it get better? I hope so, these new pain killers seem to be doing a better job than the last ones.. and the last thing I want is to go straight back onto Morphine, so I'm giving it a serious chance.

My appointment with the hospital is pretty soon, so I'm hoping my pre-op will shortly follow, and then hopefully I'll be as right as rain.

I've read many horror stories about the operation, but also read some pretty incredible ones as well. Hopefully mine will be the latter. 

I know this I've rambled on a bit, but maybe there is someone out there, who is suffering too? If you are, I'm more than happy to talk to you.. 

Anyway, Ciao For Now! xXx

Just a little way of getting to know me better...

Even though I know I am the only one reading these... apart from my other half....I just couldn't wait to sit down this evening and crack on with another blog. 

I could write all about my day, but it's really not been that exciting. I mean, there was obviously exciting moments - like finding some serious bargains in my local Tesco - and cooking a scrummy dinner for the family.. but realistically it's just been a mediocre day, filled with pain and guinea pig cuddles. (I shall talk about both of those in more detail in another blog or maybe in this 'tag' who knows?) 

So I was sitting thinking, 'ooo I shall have to think of something super exciting to write on my new entry. And I realised, that after reading a few other blogs on the internet, I am probably obligated to complete the TMI tag. So here goes... 

Lets get sharing some stuff about me... 

1: What are you wearing? I'm so boring, just a black vest top and leggings.
2: Ever been in love? I'm very much in love, thank you.
3: Ever had a terrible breakup? Not really...
4: How tall are you? 5″7... so rather tall, I suppose?
5: How much do you weigh? Enough...
6: Any tattoos? Yes, I have seven tattoos...
7: Any piercings? I used to have a fair few piercings, but I only have my ears and my belly now.8. OTP (One True Pairing: what's your favourite fictional couple)? Fictional couple? Definitely Nick and Jess from New Girl. Pretty much perfection.
9. Favourite show? Ooo, tough one. Vampire Diaries? New Girl? Parenthood? Sherlock? Game of Thrones? Don't think I could choose....
10. Favourite band? Always has been, and always will be.. McFly.
11. Something you miss? Chester...
12. Favourite song? This is another tough one, but if I had to choose just one...Meatloaf-  Heaven can wait.
13. How old are you? 23.
14. Zodiac sign? Capricorn
15. Quality you look for in a partner? Everything that my other half has.
16: Favourite Quote? “You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.”
17: Favourite actor? Male: Hugh Jackman. Female: Lauren Graham.
18: Favourite color? Burgundy.
19: Loud music or soft? Completely depends on the situation...
20: Where do you go when you're sad? Straight to my room, if possible.
21: How long does it take you to shower? like 10-15 minutes?
22: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? Depends if I need to dry my hair... like half an hour to an hour?
23: Ever been in a physical fight? I've pushed someone over once, when I was like 16.
24: Turn on? Benedict Cumberbatch.
25: Turn off? Bad teeth.
26: The reason I joined youtube? I haven't yet, I will though. Soon as I pluck up the courage for it...
27: Fears? I have lots. ha.
28: Last thing that made you cry? this stupid illness.
29: Last time you said you loved someone? Like 10 minutes ago, to my guinea pigs.
30: Meaning behind your Youtube/Blogging Name? "Hey I'm Zana..."
31: Last book you read? I'm reading a series... but for the life of me I cant remember what it's called!
32: The book you're currently reading? Same as above...
33: Last show you watched? Game of Thrones... oh my word.
34: Last person you talked to? Adam. I literally just asked him what television show we last watched...
35: The relationship between you and the person you last texted? He's my other half.
36: Favourite food? Chinese or Pizza.
37: Place you want to visit? Paris, New York City.
38: Last place you were? In the garden, saying 'night night' to my little baby guineapigs.
39: Do you have a crush? So many. ;)
40: Last time you kissed someone? Earlier today. Cheeky.
41: Last time you were insulted? Probably earlier today, haha.
42: Favourite flavour of sweet? Strawberry.
43: What instruments do you play? The triangle...
44: Favourite piece of jewellery? I couldn't choose, I have a favourite necklace at the moment. It's an old purchase from Top Shop - that I rediscovered when we moved.
45: Last sport you played? I played speedrunners on the computer yesterday, exercise done for a year.
46: Last song you sang? 'Two out of three aint bad.' Because I'm listening to a Meatloaf album...
47: Favourite chat up line? You smell like trash. May I take you out?
48: Have you ever used it? Ha! Just then, to see if it worked.. totally did.
49: Last time you hung out with anyone? Um.. earlier tonight, we cooked for the family - so people came round, I guess that's hanging out?
50: Who should do this tag next? I think everybody on the internet has already done this, if you haven't, then go crazy. 

Well, that was a lot of questions, and I still don't feel like anyone will know me much better because of it - however, if by any chance, someone does read this... don't give up on me, I'm pretty entertaining at times. haha.
Anyway, its time for me to curl up and chill with the latest Avon book... 

Ciao for Now! xXx

So I finally did it...

I finally sat down and started my own Blog.

I've been sat in this same spot for so long now, that my bum is completely numb and my cup of tea is ice cold. Which is a shame really, because I love a good cup of tea. 

Anyway, I guess I should introduce myself.. My name is Rosanna, and I've wanted to start a blog up for ages... but I've never quite had the courage to do so. Why now? I guess I grew a pair. I have no idea. Besides from the fact, that it seems a good way to vent, I really do love a good beauty blog/bargain/chit chat. 

Why the blog name "heyimzana", I hear you ask. Well that's quite simple really. Some people used to shorten my name down to 'Zana' and I liked to introduce myself with "Hey I'm..." I put them all together, and ta-dah! I guess it's just kind of stuck with me for eternity. 

I intend to fill my blog to the brim, and hopefully someone out there will find its contents, and atleast enjoy reading them. 

Anyway, I feel like I'm rambling on a tad. 

So I shall leave it here.

Ciao for now!  xXx